Tired Car Birthday Hashtags Seagull

The title of this post is a merging of the topics on my mind right now.

I just remembered that I have a Vine account. Seven seconds is nothing, yet can be an eternity.

Also, Coco IS TWO YEARS OLD TODAY! As in right now. This instant. It’s amazing how much she’s been talking over the last couple of weeks. She tells me little stories and we laugh at a lot. She’s my light and I love seeing her blossom!

I’ve been feeling tired nearly all of the time, due to my schedule. I might be able to cut back on some stuff soon, but I need to make it for about another six months. Wish me luck.

I don’t think that I’ve ever owned a car that has such low miles. You either pay as you go or pay when something catastrophic happens. I’m thankful that I haven’t been on the side of the road anywhere for a long time. (My 1983 first Jetta, nicknamed Satan, I’m talking to YOU!)

Low mileage

Low mileage

One of my superpowers does NOT include having the patience to put together IKEA furniture, but this face was entirely worth it.

Coco and her new table

Coco and her new table

People I know have been moving, and have been choosing to move to New Orleans more often than not. I almost did the same thing once upon a time, pre-Katrina. It’s a bittersweet place for me and by that I mean that it reminds me of an alternate existence that I could have had, had I taken a leap of faith.

I had some beautiful yet sinister experiences while I was there.

Now that I found out through the grapevine that another friend is moving there, I think that would be a great impetus to give it another chance. For a visit or little vacation, for sure.

People like to complain about #hashtags that are used on the net, but you know what? You can find a lot of interesting stuff based on what people tag and can make new virtual friends in the process. Specifically I’m talking about Instagram and the #vintagemotorcycle hashtag as well as randomness on Twitter.

I’ve found some great accounts on Instagram that have nice pics of old bikes and amazing custom work. I recently revisited all of the bike pics that I’ve taken throughout the years and added the appropriate hashtags. #donthate

I’m running out of classes to take and don’t have a viable plan to tackle my Bachelor’s Degree situation.

My own birthday is coming up and I’m going through a little hair identity crisis. It’s taken so long to get it to look “normal” (whatever that is) but I don’t feel respectable nor interesting with this hair at the moment. SO. TEMPTED. TO. THROW. LEFTOVERS in it. I’ve still got some blue spectrum randomness in my stash drawers and it doesn’t help that Coco likes to look at them and say, “hair, hair” over and over. Although her version of saying hair kind of sounds like ear.

Edited to add: my friend and former co-worker Jody said the following on Facebook: “teal, where did the L go?”

Hair identity crisis

Hair identity crisis

That pretty much sums it up but I worry about my “hire-ability in the Silicon Valley” if I look “alternative” in any way. What do us creatives do?

Here’s a very good video that I had to watch for school and it’s James Bach. Besides being one of the world’s foremost experts on Software Quality Assurance and Testing, he happens to be the son of Richard Bach, who wrote Jonathan Livingston Seagull” title=”Jonathan Livingston Seagull” target=”_blank”>Jonathan Livingston Seagull and other neat books.

When I had mentioned in my last post that I don’t think that software testing is brain surgery, I didn’t mean to offend anyone. It’s a field that can be very challenging but it can be tackled by people like me, and that’s what I meant the first time around.

I think of people that I used to know when I lived in Seattle and how self-important they would act about their job, as if it was some kind of sacred mystery. I am reminded of something that I heard in my meditation class. Elitist first world problems, as in “you wouldn’t understand my suffering.” Explains some people to a T.

This was posted elsewhere by my stylist, Nicole, and it’s about moving to San Francisco. I laughed.

Don’t miss this Smiths tribute!!

Smiths tribute

Have a nice everything,

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Week in Recap 3.6.13

Aunt Susan

Aunt Susan

Rest in peace, sweet and beautiful (Great) Aunt Susan. Although I didn’t get to know her for very long, I’ll say that she was a drop of color in a world that can be filled with humorless grays. She was also a formidable partner when it came to eating lobster, oh my! We bonded over Mother’s Day and lobster last May and she had so much fun selecting outfits for Coco.

We’re privileged to have known this wonderful woman who was honest nearly to a fault and told it like it was. She wasn’t afraid to use the B word, either, which I can really appreciate. Thank you for existing, Aunt Susan. We’ll miss you forever and the world is a better place because of you.

Now it seems so trivial (I had started this entry a few days before Susan’s passing) to talk about the first day of beginning millinery class at Cañada College last Saturday. I’ll say this, that it helped to spark some much needed creativity. It’s necessary to have a respite during the very challenging times as of late.

My instructor, Wayne Wichern, initially was a floral designer many moons ago, but after a trip to New York to be part of the dance world, he got into millinery (hat making) instead. He’s been hat making for nearly three decades. It’s a great thing to meet and work with someone who is so very passionate and creative. I was immediately charmed upon hearing his response when asked how many hat molds he owned. “Oh, around 800. You see, I’ve killed a lot of people.”

Wayne Wichern at work

Wayne Wichern at work

Millinery Class

Millinery Class

My first hat project

My first hat project

I am going to make a hat like this for my second hat for this class.

I am going to make a hat like this for my second assignment for class.

I’d known about this class for a long time now and I had missed registering for it last year. It’s only offered once a year at Cañada College and I got it this semester! The campus itself is exquisite and is located on 131 acres in the western part of Redwood City in the foothills of the Santa Cruz Mountains.

I’m unsure where this class will take me, but I feel like I’m doing something. Back in the days of burlesque in Los Angeles in 2005, I was not very confident. That was a shame because I was armed with my hot glue gun and feathers from the Mother Plucker Feather Company and wanted to create things to adorn myself with.

I’m currently inspired by the following milliners: Loreta Corsetti, J. Smith, Deanna Gibbons, Jasmin Zorlu, Pearls and Swine. That’s a brief list, by the way.

There a lot on my mind and I’ve had an extensive to do list this week. In no particular order: I really need to call my dad back, my taxes were finally finished today, I’m looking forward to getting the new David Bowie album, etc.

I’m a bit freaked out about an appointment that Coco has this coming Friday. She’s had some recurring episodes of croup since last May and finally enough was enough and we had to do some tough love with her pediatrician. We were unsatisfied with his answers and treatment protocol.

Now she is off to see an otolaryngologist. Local anesthetic so that they can insert a tube with a camera in it down her NOSE to check out her trachea and that whole area. Major sad face. I

It’s easy to get very sick to my stomach as I type this, so keep us in your well wishes and thoughts.

Silly moments with Coco

Silly moments with Coco

She’s talking a lot more and is stringing three words together now. I should really make a video of it.


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Week in Recap 1.25.13

This week was filled with school, work, and shopping. Oh, and the sky was all purple.

After taking the lovely route on the 280 freeway the other day, I ended up taking the exit that dropped me off right near Hillsdale Shopping Center.

Oh, the mall. I wanted to go to H&M and check out some stuff for the always thriving (and getting taller) Colette. She’s bigger than the sizes in the 18 month range but isn’t quite there for some of the 24 month items.

This is her hot sauce and cookie face. I don’t like anything too spicy nor do I like sour cream, so I know where she gets it from!

Coco loves her salsa

Coco loves her salsa

Coco is obsessed with owls lately and I found her an outfit at H&M. I meandered into the clearance section at H&M, I found goodies galore. Allow me to introduce you to a piece from the Margiela collection. For a paltry $10 (!), I acquired this “lining dress”.

Margiela for H&M

Margiela for H&M

It’s not my usual color at all and it’s a bit big on me. However, I see some distinct possibilities with a dress clip 90′s style and maybe these wedges.

All of the accessories were half off and I got these eggplant faux suede wedges for $10!

H&M Eggplant Wedges

H&M Eggplant Wedges

I’ve been beyond obsessed with faux fur for my entire life and this bag fits the bill perfectly. A steal at only $7.50!

H&M Faux Fur Purse

H&M Faux Fur Purse

This skirt reminded me of Lip Service and the Fly Girls from In Living Color at the same time. Very form fitting and a mere $7!

Shiny skirt

Shiny skirt

What would winter be like without a furry winter hat, also known as a Ushanka in some parts. It kind of matches the wedges.

Faux fur Ushanka

Faux fur Ushanka

Lastly, there were experiments with hair chalk. I miss my “alternative” hair color so much and never really ventured into the rose colored side of things. I rather like it, but will have to see if it can be pulled off long-term.

Pink hair chalk

Pink hair chalk

1/3 of our household has been hit with the flu. Coco had her shot last year and we got our shots last Friday. Hmm. I’m still skeptical about them, but it apparently takes 2 weeks to reach full immunity. Now I’ve got a headache and feel a little out of it.

What are you up to lately?

The show must go on,

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I’m glad that 2012 is getting further away. So it’s January 14th and I’ve been very busy and this site has a new look that I’m thrilled to share with you!

Major news is that I’ve been at Cycle Gear for a little over two months. It’s going very well and I know that I enjoy it a lot.

The clock is ticking as I am registered to take my Motorcycle Safety Foundation course at an unnamed date in the future! Here’s a video from their YouTube channel.

I went to Los Angeles with Colette for a few days and we returned last last Sunday. I really missed the old hometown and it was so great to catch up with some old friends. Even though I didn’t get to see everyone that I would have liked to. No Kubrick exhibit at the LACMA for me, but oh well. The exhibit goes until June 30th so maybe that could be a birthday present for me?

I tried to document my outfits during this vacation and the following pics go in order from each day.

Day one found me feeling chilly in Forever 21 skinny jeans, plain black tank top with a lace bow, Merona black cardigan over that with Skaist Taylor (Target x Neiman Marcus collection) faux fur vest over the cardigan. I initially perused that Target collab thinking that most of it was kind of tacky but I changed my mind when I put on the vest and saw the versatility of the faux fur.

Here are some pictures:

Day 1 outfit






What can I say? These are just a small excerpt from the trip but those of you that follow me on Instagram and elsewhere will probably have already seen these and more.

2013 is full of surprises and I look forward to them. I won’t be as much of a stranger around here and will make time between school and the rest. Writing is something that I’ll be focusing on more. Now that things look better around here, it will be easier to check in more.


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I’m Still Here

Where do I start? What’s been happening?

I’m deeply saddened and keep about the tragedy in Newtown, CT. We should all be thankful for our lives and our loved ones as you just never know what might happen.

That said, I had a bit of a scare with an infection that required a trip to the emergency room a couple of weeks ago. Random and very sudden.

Colette was also very sick with another round of croup, an ear infection and then a reaction to the antibiotics from said infection! Just bleh, the poor thing. We’re on the mend now, though, but please know that it really sucked.

Some of my most anxious moments have occurred during parenting and from what I gather, that’s nothing. Each stage of development brings new challenges and wonder. More on the wonder and less with the adversity, thank you.

I’ve been unplugging myself from the hustle and bustle of the internets when I can lately. I see that it’s time to step away from Facebook again for a little bit. Perhaps Instagram as well and their funky new ToS, although they seem to be backpedaling heavy from it.


Our household is heavy on the Spongebob and Regular Show, with bouts of American Horror Story: Asylum and Adventure Time thrown in for good measure. Coco doesn’t get to go anywhere near AHS, of course, with limited exposure to the others.

I mention our shows because whenever I read certain friends status updates, I automatically say them in my head with a voice from Spongebob. Squidward has gotten a lot of mileage lately, I’ll say, especially with some of the nameless grumps on my friends list.

Elephant in the room: I’d been feeling overwhelmed between school and the new-ish job. I’ve been working in the motorcycle industry at Cycle Gear for the last month and a half.

It was a difficult decision to go back into the retail sector as I had run screaming from it not all that long ago. However, this job is different and is a welcomed challenge. I’ve got some cool co-workers and am learning so much that I could actually describe my experience as fun.

I like working in an environment that helps encompass an entire feeling and experience. There’s so much that I could discuss so far and I will. I’m thinking of doing a series on what I’ve learned so far about motorcycles and parts and gear. I’ve also got to deal with getting my actual motorcycle license as well. That will be happening very soon and I can’t wait!

As for school this semester, I didn’t do as well as I’d hoped to. Wah-wah. Frankly, it feels like my school balloon is losing air and is shriveling up in a corner. The show must go on though and I need to sort out a more ambitious plan of action.

A 3.52 GPA isn’t the worst problem to have and I mean that sincerely. I’m so self-critical and am not sure what to do when the time comes to transfer to another school. Next semester is already looming and I’ve got some very difficult classes on the horizon.

Here’s what I’ve been wearing lately. At work, the uniform is jeans, sensible shoes, and my work shirt. Certainly not a lot of room for imagination, but I do my best.

I got a waterproof leopard trench coat for the tremendous rain that we’ve been having lately. Blue furry stole acquired at H&M for the paltry sum of $14.95. I also got a couple of things off my holiday wishlist and haven’t received them yet.

I’m in the sprocket section. Yay!

Hopefully I’ll get an update in before the holiday travel to see family.

Love and light,

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Week in Recap 10.26.12

It’s time for a recap. Where do I start?

It’s that time, my favorite time of the year because it’s my favorite holiday. HALLOWEEEN! It’s even more fun because Coco is now 17 months old and not only is she talking more, but she can also whisper now. So there’s no excuse to not use her inside voice, haha.

All signs point to yes that she’s inherited my flair for costume and adornment. This year, she actually has two costumes, a bee and a lemur. My friend Zoe joked that she could be a BEE-MUR. I love it. Yesterday we dressed up and went to GoogleWeen ’12 at her dad’s work. I’ve been told many times that I’m a comic book character and I went with that vision for this year.

Here are a couple of pics:

I still love to play with makeup and took a lot of inspiration from some images that I found on Pinterest and actually made an idea come to fruition. I smell a tutorial in the future with this one. I did my best impression of a Roy Lichtenstein pop art piece and tried to get my expression just right.

I already had most of the makeup that I used to achieve this look. One thing that I didn’t do is create a white Kabuki type of base because I wasn’t quite sure how I would do the dots. Jonas graciously made a pattern for me just, but the grease makeup that I had wouldn’t slip easily into the holes of the pattern.

To refresh my memory with what I used for the makeup: L’oreal Magic Lumi primer, Makeup Forever HD foundation, MAC Fluidline in Blacktrack, POP Beauty’s Pop Neon palette, Sugarpill’s Love + eyeshadow, ELF waterproof liquid liner, Ardell Demi Wispies eyelashes, Kate Moss for Rimmel’s red #1 (which I almost love more than MAC’s Russian Red, sorry MAC!). Let’s see, what else? Oh, some cheesy red grease crayon that I went over again with the Sugarpill Love + shadow (one of my all-time favorites).

Makeup should be fun and whimsical and yesterday really was a blast. I’m thrilled with how it turned out for my first time trying this look and I think that I’ll need a couple of different brushes to supplement my existing arsenal. It’s always a challenge to layer the makeup seamlessly. Heat could also be an issue as well as any mineral oil in the products (which is notoriously comedogenic, gross!)

So I got a job! You’re looking at a new sales associate for Cycle Gear. This is the first job that I’ve ever had that required a HAIR drug test. They took a decent amount of hair but I really do have enough hair for 3 people, so there. I haven’t been scheduled yet, but it will hopefully be soon and I’m trying to get major stuff done with school before my schedule changes.

Next semester I’ll hopefully be going to in person classes at my local community college here in Redwood City. While online classes have been great, it’ll be a nice change to attend class.

Wish me luck that I can actually get the classes that I need. As of now, I’m still pursuing my Psychology degree.

Hello, math, we might meet again. I also need a language requirement. I used to speak Spanish until I was 5, but the prospect of math is actually scarier than any horror story, in my opinion.

If you’re on Facebook, this article is a MUST READ for all of the crap that’s going on with promoted posts and how you can’t see anything anymore.

It’s no conspiracy. Facebook acknowledged it as recently as last week: messages now reach, on average, just 15 percent of an account’s fans. In a wonderful coincidence, Facebook has rolled out a solution for this problem: Pay them for better access.


Thanks, Nicole, for sharing this article: You’re Being a Dick on Instagram.

Now, we’re doing it with images. They’re Instaboasts. Look how pretty, look how clean, look how nice, look how fun. You want your friends to envy every little thing like it’s a cocaine piñata at the Trump Tower.

Here’s an important read from my friend in Seattle, the ever so glamourous Sydni Deveraux. You must read Bullies in Burlesque.

This article really hits home for me in many ways. It also makes me think of doing burlesque again.

While we are talking burlesque, Into the Gloss did an interview with Dita Von Teese and I love it! She’s so funny.

Burlesque should always be on your terms and that’s why I was attracted to it. It can be fun and a good way to go with self-acceptance, body, mind and soul.

I’ve been taking Pilates and Spin classes at Crunch and have also been cutting back on my consumption of animal products. This time I’m doing it not because of weight concerns, but because I want to feel better. I also have a conscience. The readings in my Personal Health class have also impacted me greatly.

Have a wonderful and amazing weekend!

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It’s not really a secret that I believe that you can transform yourself through your appearance.

As I’ve gotten older, I realize that I’ve tried a lot of things, both personally and professionally to “hack” my appearance. Many of the experiments would be ill-advised right now. Like dyeing my hair and then using relaxer on my bangs. It should have melted my hair, but no. Don’t try that at home, Coco, and other kids.

It all starts with you, like everything else. Who’s to tell you what you should look like? That’s a loaded question for sure, but I think that it’s perfectly harmless to do your own thing. What if you want to have mint and caramel hair?

That’s what happened last week at my stylist Nicole’s new salon, Tetrachromat. In Oakland. She’s got a brand new space that I love and we spent an entire day together on this transformation. Here’s the before and after, taken by Nicole.

Before and After Transformations

You see, the freakiest thing is that I’ve gotten so dark through the years. See the before? I used to dye my hair blue-black primarily so it would be glossy and dark like my demeanor, haha. However, it took a turn to the really dark side around my pregnancy, I think. Which is fine, but then I decided that it was too dark. I wanted to try something very new. I needed a change. Now if only employment and school stuff would follow suit.

After having dyed it in the blue-teal-peacock-purpley range since 2008 in the days of Ulta, I began to grow it out by default last year. Let’s just say that it was too high maintenance to continue to do myself and with help at home. Baby takes precedence above all things and I vowed that I would not do my own hair again, save maybe for the erratic at home bang trim.

I love my new hair so much and wish wish wish that I had done this before. Now that I have the amazing resource to do so (it’s not cheap, but it’s not as astronomical as you might think, either), I’m going to see where this colour takes me. It’s TIGI for reference and I love all of their products that I’ve used so far.

Between this hair and seeing Moonrise Kingdom, which is one of my top 10 movies ever, I think that I do need a style shakeup. The character of Suzy Bishop is only 12 and it’s a Wes Anderson movie, but I think that you can and should take style inspiration from everywhere. AND THEN MAKE IT YOUR OWN, of course. That said, Peter Pan collars and knee high socks forever, right? She also reminds me of Margot Tenenbaum in eyeliner and demeanor. (Gwyneth’s best look, in my humble opinion.)

Suzy Bishop Moonrise Kingdom

This new dress was procured at Le Target in the clearance section for a pittance and I think it works very well.

Target polka dot dress

Here’s a pic of a dress that I actually fit into again. It’s plaid, dark blue and green, and was procured at Crossroads in Upper Sunset, SF. Yeah, yeah, creepy bathroom shot. Whatevs.

Target dress

On a side note, I’m sitting here a little exasperated as I need to take my last final of the semester, but can’t. The online system for PCC is totally down today and I’m not sure when I’ll be able to take it, which is a load of bull. Ah, first world problems, eh? Boooooo!!

Next semester should be interesting as I have registered for 18 units. Crazy, sure. Doable, maybe. Likely that I will drop a class, but we’ll see.

Stuff and things,

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Beauty, Style and Aging

What do you do when you’re in located in an age demographic somewhere between Glamour and Reader’s Digest? I turned 38 this year and I know that I’m not alone when I say that I can’t believe it.

Don’t get me wrong, I’d never want to be 20 again, wet behind the years and caring wayyyyyy too much about the wrong things. People’s opinions about me and my life. Hanging out with others who didn’t always have my best interests at heart, and so on. I took the wrong things seriously and the right ones wrongly.

There are two things that I can tell you with absolute certainty: 1) if you tweeze or shave your eyebrows, they’ll never be quite the same again and 2) wear your sunblock!

My brows *still* haven’t quite grown back after a massive attack with tweezers nearly 20 years ago.

“By the way, you pluck a chicken and you tweeze a brow.” Miss Angela’s English accent rings in my head six years later, from when I was in beauty school.

We are in such a blatantly Photoshopped world nowadays that I’m scared that my daughter Coco isn’t going to have any realistic influences. Even though I don’t put her in front of a tv and do my best to limit her exposure to ads, she enjoys perusing through my fashion magazines.

VOGUE was a monthly ritual with my own mom, but I remember the VOGUE of yesteryear being blatantly formidable. The women were the age of women and at least appeared to be past pubescence. Being older didn’t involve descriptors like “looks ______ (good, great, ok) for being ______ (fill in your age here).

How about just being yourself? At any and every age? What’s wrong with being your best and brightest and happiest self, come what may.

I live to defy previous versions of myself in resilience and fortitude. It’s time to call out anyone and anything that makes you feel anything less than awesome.

I wish that I didn’t give a shit when I was younger, because there’s so much that doesn’t matter.

*You* always matter, but there are so many trivialities that you’re not going to remember.

Life is in the relationships that you cultivate. Although I might not remember all of the parties and debauchery of yesteryear, I do know who’s been there through thick and thin and to me, that’s what really counts.


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